Wanna be a Rock Star!

xiaomingxing :: 11:09 PM
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Monday, September 27, 2010

Back to this place again. A place for release, a place of many untold stories. I teared, i cried, i bleed when i wrote the letter. There is alot alot of things i wanted to tell u. Things have changed as days goes by.. Times whereby we used to communicate on phone are gone.. Actually i really have lots and lots of things to tell u on the phone.. This had stop due to the long quarrels months back and had disappear when times goes by.. Everytime wanted to tell u something but we are always quarrelling and u refuses to pick up my calls. More and more quarrels each day.. Lesser and lesser time for each other each day too. I really tried. I tried my best to rush home after work and i really did plan to go places with u.. Had more time for each other everyday.. But it always failed. U refuses to gave up ur slp and come down early for me.. If not there will crowds joining.. Things are no longer the same as before, no matter how much i put in, end result is still the same.. I feel more and more useless each day, more and more demoralise each day from ur scoldings. I also had my own feelings, i also wished to be appreciatd at times.I miss the times we webcam, I miss the time we chatted on the phone, i miss the time - all the good times we had with less quarrels. I just miss every single thing that is used to be in the past. I may not the the number 1 boy but at least give me a chance to be number 2.

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

xiaomingxing :: 10:55 PM
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Friday, September 24, 2010

ARGH.. Fuck excel.. I HAVE PROBLEMS COMPLETING MY TASK AND MONDAY IS THE DUE DATE FOR ME!! Cfm will get a 1 * good one from WO liew and dy too.. I just wan to get out from army asap!!!! Lowly paid job, 101% expectations and no freedom... Sucks big time man! ARMY IS NOT FOR MOST OF THE MALES I GUESS.. Guess ppl just sign on because they got no choice.. Each got their untold stories... I have heard many different types of it.. Since SAF knows it y cant they revamp it? 3G army, whereby their regulations is still 1G? Argh. freedom. freedom. freedom.

Back to sqaure one. Guess this life i wont have the fortune to enjoy normal dating life. Hey guys and ladies out there.. can u guys stop being so sweet in the public... Its ugly! TOUGH GAL ROX!

Ps: Qingyi jieeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. If u happen to pass by my blog. pls help me revamp it by putting in new S.H.E pics! haaha.. OWE U 1 BIG BIG MEAL AGAIN! PROVIDED IF U GOT TIME TO CLAIM IT! :D THANKS LOT!

xiaomingxing :: 1:59 PM
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Wooohooo~ I am in serious debt lo.. Wahahahhahahhaha... Nv ending bills coming in.. Oct allowance will be gone again... insurance loan, car installment... hmm, just wrote in to tp this afternoon.. Hoped that they will accept my reasons and defer my payment to 10dec... if not, i think i will need to commit suicide le... Hmm, think if i die the insurance money is enough for my family to become a millionaire yea. COOL PI LE MAN! OH YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

~Dearest lord in heaven, if i die bring thy soul up to the skies and let ye honour u thy lord with my humble soul and let me be your servant as lord u gave me life.~ Bless miss isabel gum as she will be the person that i will feel that i owe her.. Bless her with a good partner if thou left her earlier than she does.. in jesus name i pray amen.

xiaomingxing :: 12:17 AM
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Have received my training schedules for this 2 months before ex wallaby. Its kinda busy schedule as 3 guys just ord-ed. Branches and formation duties are getting more! Really cant wait to get back my pink ic in 9 more mths time! It has been long since i haven been enjoying civilian life. How i wished i can enjoyed it and cherish it again! Tmr will be me and baby 6 mths. Time flies, it has been 6 mths alr.. Went thru my all my 1st time time tgt with her. 1st time taking such "exciting" ride with her at genting. 1st time going to batam with her. 1st time exploring many many things tgt. And lastly going thru life and death tgt. Although i am perfectly alright and not hurt at all but there is this scar in my heart that will be always there. It really really hurts me when i see u are helpless with ur single hand. I just felt all my guilt is rushing up my mind. I just dont know how to express it out i feel that i should keep all this to myself as i am the main cause cause of it. The moment when u told me that u couldnt carry me anymore next time when i am drunk in the lift days back, my tears burst out in my heart. I dont know how to put it in words but the feel of my heart is like its gonna cry that kind of feeling. And this sentence u told me had been going thru my mind as and when my mind isnt occupied with things. This words is really hurting my heart intensively compare to all the hurting stuff that u mention before.. - " i couldnt carry u when u are drunk again next time "

xiaomingxing :: 11:03 PM
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Friday, September 3, 2010

The Unanswered Prayer

Finally i am back again to blogging:D.. Hmm this seems to be the place whereby it had accompany me thru the ups and down of my life.. Whenever i am feeling happy or and joyous moment i would come and pen down my happiness whenever i am feel down this place would be a place for me to tears down my pain.. Life is like a nv ending circle, revolving the cycle that wat others or other's others had gone thru and it might be the same case study that might happened onto u.. This is life, i suppose? perhaps? If there is a choice, i would like to keep it simple and sweet.. Thats all, no complication, no fansination.. Perhaps i need a time machine, yea? Just to keep myself at the sweetest, most enjoyable and precious moment of my life and nv get out of it. Be it work, r/s, friendship etc etc.. Life would nv be the same again once time flies pass.. It applies to all.. Sometimes looking at others having their sweetest moment in their life really envy me.. Wondering how sweet my life would be when it occurs on me.. The world is nv fair, u may had urs alr but others may have it longer than u do. No matter how much u tried and how much u fought for it or even how much effort u put in, it maybe not be the turnout that u expected. Humans are weird creatures, they really really need motivations to spur them on and keep them moving. Motivations however are always the hardest gift that one party will give to another. Which is to says that one party needs to give in to the other to cheer the other party up by a simple encouragement be it by actions or words, it would be good enough to spur the other party to work even harder.. Thats the way of life i guess? Perhaps i just need a space for me to talk to and pen my feelings.. Sometimes i really wants to spend time and tells u how i feel and talk to u about certain topics but i just dont know how to conquer the fear i had for u to start it. Your expression gives me the impression that i shouldnt say anything and do any affections to u.. Sometimes i really really envy others of their sweetness and enjoying their every moments with their love ones and having their private time tgt peacefully and understanding one another shortcomings. But all this is just too far fetch for me i guess or i am thinking too much? Jesus Christ i need u to answer my prayer. Amen.

想要把你忘记真的好难

思念的痛在我心里纠缠

朝朝暮暮的期盼

永远没有答案

为何当初你选择一刀两断

听你说声爱我真的好难

曾经说过的话风吹云散

站在天秤的两端

一样的为难

唯一的答案

爱一个人好难

xiaomingxing :: 12:08 AM
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